Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Peer Pressure


This is a picture of me and Chris when he was 6 months old. Since then I have had 5 more babies. I have been a mother for almost 15 years. Reflecting back on it, there is a lot that I've learned, a lot that I've relaxed on and realized that there is so much more I have yet to learn.

My two oldest are teenagers now and that brings a whole other level of parenting to the picture I never prepared myself for. Taking care of babies and little kids is one thing. Feeding, changing, bathing, etc. It's all very physically challenging. It is hard, believe me, running after toddlers and teaching young kids the difference between right wrong. Having so many kids at so many different ages, I'm still doing those things today. But, having teenagers is so very different.

I always thought, teenagers would be hell because of their mood swings and going through puberty. This was all I had been told from older parents. This is true but I, myself deal with frequent mood swings, so the moodiness doesn't get to me too much. It's helping them deal with life and growing up that seems to be the hardest. Peer pressure, especially living in a small town, is very real and very difficult to deal with for both them and me. It's not always to do something "bad", but just to do something because "everyone else" is. I want to teach my children to stand up for themselves and be proud of who they are because we are all different and blessed with different talents and personalities for a reason.

Growing up I was very different than those around me and can understand how they feel. They just want to fit in. They just want to be like everyone else. I want them to know that it's natural to want to fit in, but being yourself is the most important thing there is. I want them to know that I love them for who they are and hope that they can love themselves for who they are too. I have 4 more kids to become teenagers and I hope and pray that we can all get through this critical stage of teenage hood fairly well.


Thursday, October 6, 2011

Re-evaluating...again

        Yesterday I was chatting with a friend and it caused me to evaluate a few things in my life....again. I am such a "figure outer". I can't even count the times I've tried to fix myself. And, believe me, there's plenty of stuff to fix. There's a perfect example right there. Talking negative about myself. But that's not what I wanted to talk about today.

       Lately I've been very overwhelmed with my life. 6 kids, 7 pets, blah, blah,blah. Everyone's heard it all before. I'm not complaining, just stating that it's overwhelming me. So, during this conversation with a friend, I realized that I tend to find things to distract me away from my responsibilities. I add on more so I don't have to deal with what  I have already on my plate. Or I run away to the TV or the comptuter and try to ignore the overwhelming storm of my life. Funny, I'm at the computer now, but this time it's different. Makes me think of when you're watching TV and a commercial comes up to tell you to stop watching TV and go outside and play. Kinda ironic.

       Anyway, so, I'm going to try to face my life head on. It's really scary ad I'm actually tearing up right now as I think about it, but I gotta do it. I asked for this life, so I gotta live it. I will be blogging every once in a while to report on my progress. But, other than that, my computer time will be limited. My house and my family need me. Thanks for listening.